4/19/24. me and my friends hang out today!! everyone got pretty high and i didnt get super high till the end and then i just ended up passing out, i woke up a bunch through the night because my girlfriend was sleeping next to me and shes a big snorer.

4/18/24. i made the bands for them and haven't added the pointy parts, i think im gonna take a break because its stressing me out a lot more than it should

4/17/24. all the crowns i made got destroyed

4/16/24. i finished up a bunch of work today and started working on a project for me and my friends, im making crowns for a birthday party so i need to make 30, i got done with 17 of them so im hoping i can finish soon.

4/15/24. me and some friends are planning on hanging out on the 19th and 20th and im super excited, i haven't been in the best mood lately so hopefully it'll help.

4/14/24. my front porch is really tore up and has a really big bush covering it so i cleaned it up pretty good and got rid of some of the bushes.

4/13/24. did a bunch of shopping today and the main Highlight is that i got some shelves for my wall near my bed for some fake plants and some candles, it looks a lot better especially with all the new photos.

4/12/24. dont remember.

4/11/24. dont remember.

4/10/24. dont remember.

4/9/24. hung out with my girlfriend again and it was really fun, we played some goose game and made pasta for dinner.

4/8/24. the eclipse "happened" today but it was covered by clouds so it didnt really happen for us, other than that it was a pretty short day.

4/7/24. i went to a play with my little sisters and it was pretty nice, it was called babe and it was about a pig becoming a sheep cow. we also got to eat at one of my favorite restaurants, was a pretty good day.

4/6/24. i played put put with my siblings and i got a 60...

4/5/24. dont remember.

4/4/24. dont remember.

4/3/24. me and my girlfriends 1 year anniversary is coming out and im super excited!! i got her some nutter butters, a photo book of us, handmade flowers, and matching bracelets, i hope she likes it!

4/2/24. didn't really do anything today except i ate a ton of grapes.

4/1/24. got to hangout with my girlfriend kinda. we were gonna have a movie date but when she arrived she immediately went to sleep so i cooked up some pasta for us and after we ate she went back to sleep until it was time she had to leave. kinda upset we didn't get to actually hangout since just the two of us haven't hung out in forever but she really needed the sleep.

3/31/24. i did a lot of gaming today and got a ton of progress done, this weekend has been pretty good.

3/30/24. perfected my pasta making and it turned out amazing, couldn't eat it all in one day so im saving the rest for lunch tomorrow.

3/29/24. played video games for a majority of the day but also cleaned for 4 hours making the house look spotless.

3/28/24. had lunch with my girlfriend and babaw today, we went to a burger place near by and its amazing, me and her have gone before but it was my babaws first time going and he loved it. he was also helping me move furniture today and after we got some donuts.

3/27/24. put up some more photos for my room and also painted a little more but the finished painting didn't look too good, was very fun though.

3/26/24. did a lot of painting today and was pretty productive, since i changed my room I've felt more motivated to do stuff and I've been in a better mood.

3/25/24. me and my brother hung out today painting some stuff for my room. i actually had a mirror hanging on my door but it ended up falling and shattering, planning on turning it into a coffee table and getting all my friends to put their hand prints on it so i can keep it with me wherever i go. luckily i was given an old mirror my mom had that will not fall because it stands up instead of being held up.

3/24/24. went to 5 and below, walmart twice, at home, and one other store i dont remember. got a bunch of stuff and headed home after a few hours of shopping and they helped me decorate mostly till they left to go do other plans they had. probably gonna finish everything tomorrow but it looks awesome right now. it all costed about 300 but the new mattress i got was 200.

3/23/24. everyone came over and we just talked about ideas since my girlfriend and the friend and a few other friends went to the mall and were planning on it before i invited them. when my mom started to go to sleep me, my girlfriend, and friend went for a walk around the neighborhood and smoked a little, it was really nice and it wasnt too cold outside too when we got home we watched some movies and i made fried rice as a snack for everyone.

3/22/24. got a new mattress and im planning in inviting my girlfriend, my mom, and one of my friends whos really good at interior designing tomorrow and letting them spend the night. the friends room is actually the reason why i want to redecorate because of how awesome and welcoming it is.

3/21/24. i really want to change up my room because it doesn't feel like my room, it feels like my stuff in a corner of a room with a bed and a desk thats it. actually had a panick attack from how much i stressed myself out with high expectations i set for myself.

3/20/24. birthday party was fun, they messed up our bill and we confused the lady really bad so i feel bad for that. apparently if the problem didn't get fixed the cashier was just gonna take it out of her paycheck so im glad that didn't happen. i ended up burning the cookies, they still tasted good but were just burnt and also burnt a part of my arm, it hurst really bad and skin is peeling.

3/19/24. my step dads step dads birthday is tomorrow so im planning on making him chocolate cookies because of an inside joke we have from last thanksgiving. we're planning on going to pizza inn i think so im also excited for pizza.

3/18/24. we went to one of our friends house for my girlfriends birthday and it was a lot of fun, we got super high, ate a lot of cake, cup cakes, and pizza so we all felt pretty sick afterwards. before the party me and her went to a burger place near us that is absolutely amazing as a little date than hung out at her house for a little bit. happy birthday girlfriend!!!!!!!

3/17/24. my girlfriends birthday is tomorrow and the 3d printed gun from ultrakill came in so im super excited to give it to her, i glued some pieces together and it's very fragile but it still looks awesome, I'm thinking of getting a stand for it.

3/16/24. did nothing today but play video games but i did try to eat outside and a bird pooped in my food.

3/15/24. hung out with my girlfriend and we watched some new anime together and got Krystals on the way to drop her off at her house.

3/14/24. my siblings (11m, 9m, 7f, 5f) got a new trampoline so i hung out with them for the day and jumped with them, it was a lot of fun but I think they broke a few bones.

3/13/24. saw my mimaw and we went to a bunch of thrift stores, we did some arts and crafts, went to the mall, and it was a lot of fun. before we would usually see eachother every Friday for dinner but her sister got breast cancer and she has to take her to her appointments and it just so happens to be every Friday. soon though she'll only be doing it every three weeks so im really excited to spend more time with her.

3/12/24. played video games all day, my girlfriend showed me this new game called risk of rain and I'm hooked. she told me to start with huntress until i get better characters but ive tried a few of them and i always just go back to her. shes super fun to play and I've made it to stage 4 on moonsoon so I'd say shes pretty good.

3/11/24. hung out with my dad all day and it was really nice, we don't get to see eachother much so we're planning on hanging out more recently.

3/10/24. my step dads moms birthday is today so we're all getting dinner together to celebrate. i dont know her super well but from what i do know she's a really sweet lady and has always been there for my mom and her son.

3/9/24. got haircuts!! i dont super like mine but it might just be because im not used to it idk. my girlfriend looks amazing and we went back to my place to dress her up to fit her new hair and she looks absolutely amazing. she's been getting a lot of compliments and im so happy for her.

3/8/24. got a lot of work done today and while im texting this I'm feeling a huge sense of deja vu. my days have been fusing together recently and its been messing me up a lot. i feel like i did all this a few weeks ago.

3/7/24. went to the doctor because of my super low vitamin d levels and something else she said i dont remember im too tired.

3/6/24. didn't do anything today but be excited for the haircut and talk to my girlfriend all day.

3/5/24. scheduled a haircut for me and my girlfriend Saturday since i need to get my layers re done and make my bangs actually bang and she doesn't like her hair and has never been to an actual salon so super excited for her first time.

3/4/24. been trying to figure out what to get my girlfriend for our 1 year anniversary so i ordered a photobook with all of our pictures through out the year and im gonna make some flowers from the fuzzy metal string things, i dont remember what they're called but i saw someone do it and it looked really cute. I'm not sure what flower to do yet but i might do lavenders and make a pot from a wood box with some fake dirt and grass. maybe spider lilies.

3/3/24. made a cheesey type pasta today with cream cheese, tomatos, spinach, and the fancy long noodles. turned out really good and i kinda want more.

3/2/24. got to see my friends today and we met up at the mall, i got two shirt from hot topic from their clearance and only paid 15 in total. my girlfriend got some jjk figures and we all got ice cream.

3/1/24. i got somebody to commission a 3d modeled gun from ultrakill for my girlfriend for her birthday, super excited to see her reaction

2/29/24. nothing happened

2/28/24. planning on hanging out with friends at the mall Saturday but other than that a pretty uneventful day.

2/27/24. did literally nothing but rot in bed, super boring.

2/26/24. dont remember what happened.

2/25/24. went to see the demon slayer movie with my brother. i didnt see the last one but i thought it was gonna be the last arc in movie form like the train but it was 2 recap ep and 1 new episode. super excited for the new season but i thought the movie was gonna be like an actual movie.

2/24/24. went to the mall today with my girlfriend and spent way too much money. i got her two jjk figures, two halo pops, jjk plush, ice cream, and i got me a bunny from an anime i really enjoy. was super fun but i wanted to go to get clothes and ended up not getting a single piece of clothing.

2/23/24. cant remember what happened.

2/22/24. cant remember what happened.

2/21/24. cant remember what happened.

2/20/24. cant remember what happened.

2/19/24. cant remember what happened.

2/18/24. cant remember what happened.

2/17/24. cant remember what happened.

2/16/24. can't remember what happened.

2/15/24. cant remember what happened.

2/14/24. valentines day!!! me and my girlfriend spent the whole day together watching some new anime, eating cookies, exchanging gifts, and relaxing. she got me a matching bracelet so when they touched it made a heart and it had magnets!! i love her so so much and i hope she had an amazing day.

2/13/24. spent all day making cookies and 'tried' to make chocolate covered strawberries. they were in the freezer for three days than went bad so couldn't really do anything about that, the cookies turned out really good and i made way too many.

2/12/24. today is one of my friends birthday and it was super fun. we hung out at the end of the day and ate some food, got super high, and just talked and hung out. I'm super happy with the friends i have and i hope he had an amazing birthday.

2/11/24. super sorry about not updating this for a few weeks, ive been really busy with work and just kept pushing it off till i forgot almost every day. once again super sorry about pushing it off for so long but I'll try to remember as much as i can.

2/10/24. played pal world with my girlfriend and we played a bunch of tiktok games together, super relaxing day and was a lot of fun, just didnt sleep well.

2/9/24. we hung out for my friends birthday and it was a lot of fun, the one that usually supplies us with the drugs ran out of edibles so i tried smoking a bit and didnt get super high while everyone else did.

2/8/24. did absolutely nothing today and just slept, I had a bunch of work i needed to finish so after a bunch of naps I did that.

2/7/24. one of my friends birthday is coming up so we're gonna hang out together on Friday than a bunch of them are going to the mall next Saturday. i probably wont go to the mall but my girlfriend might and im excited to hear how fun it was.

2/6/24. made a valentines card for my girlfriend but this one was more of just a funny card to laugh at. i have her real card already done so when it comes to valentines day she'll have 3 cards.

2/5/24. I've been procrastinating a lot on updating this site so now i just don't remember what i did. nothing has really happened this whole week anyways so it probably wasn't anything important.

2/4/24. tuna makes me feel really sick and just smelling it makes me nauseous. almost everyone in my family loves it and i dont understand why. I've been drinking a lot more tomatoe soup recently so when i got home i made it for lunch/dinner, as soon as it came out of the microwave i poured it all over my skin and bedding. if anyone has made like the travel cup tomatoe soups you get just how hot it is. i ended up crying for 30 minutes and couldn't move because of how much it hurt.

2/3/24. played palworld with my girlfriend all of today. i had been waiting for this game to come out for months and it's a lot of fun. game is buggy and definitely has room to improve but its still in beta so im excited to see what it'll turn out to be. its a lot like arc so they'll probably put in a few features from it. i really hope they dont put in the skill tree because for me its more annoying than anything. i like playing with people but i dont like depending on people just to craft something.

2/2/24. finally ordered a plushie my girlfriend has bren wanting for her birthday. her birthday is in march but the plush wont come in until may. slightly crying on the inside but whatever.

2/1/24. its February! i remembered something my dad had told me when i was still in elementary school and that was that time moves a lot faster than you realize, I didnt believe him since one day felt like 5 but this year just started and it already feels like it's about to end.

1/31/24. took a nap as soon as i got back home, ended up sleeping the whole day and it was amazing. apparently girlfriend is gonna be sick for a while and I wont be able to see her until monday. i got a lot of the Valentines stuff while shes been sick so all thats left is the food part. im gonna makes the cookies but im debating if i should also do nutter butters or chocolate covered strawberries or both.

1/30/24. was a pretty stressful day, i didn't talk to anybody till about 5 pm when my girlfriend woke up. i realized nobody really talks with me unless my girlfriend is around which makes me feel kinda lonely.

1/29/24. girlfriend has covid so i didnt get to see her today, she was worried if i had any symptoms since we were practically on top of eachother the whole time but i feel perfectly fine.

1/28/24. the whole day was just getting groceries and cleaning, really boring and kinda just draining. i need to get out more and do stuff so simple tasks like this doesn't suck the life out of me.

1/27/24. ended up staying the night and than went to an anime convention with my brother, it was a lot of fun and i got a keychain, totoro plush, and a new figure.

1/26/24. me and my friends had a party and we got really high, my girlfriend smoked a little too much so she hasnt been feeling good because it killed her throat.

1/25/24. nothing exciting happened today and was just work, i talked to a few friends and we're planning on hanging out tomorrow.

1/24/24. me and my girlfriend got to see each other and hang out, we watched a lot of anime and i made us some really nice burritos. she told me the only ghibli movie shes seen is ponyo so the next time we hangout were gonna have a ghibli movie marathon.

1/23/24. cleaned the whole kitchen after the mess from last nights dinner and now it looks amazing. talked to my girlfriend all night as well and it was super fun. i finally got her to watch jjk and now shes hooked and getting way too atached to too many characters. if you've seen it you get why that's a problem.

1/22/24. tried walking across the street to get coke and i fell, didnt even get the coke because the store closed early.

1/21/24. my dad has a new pasta recipe and its really good. all thata changed is just the sauce but its tomatos, spinach, and cream cheese thrown in a pan than you put it in the oven for a bit than finally smash all of it together and mix it up.

1/20/24. cleaned the whole house and just played videogames all day, i really need a nap.

1/19/24. got to see my little sister after a few weeks and apparently they shut down school everywhere for a week. we got some Chinese and played some games together.

1/18/24. super slippery and cold outside. i played a bunch of animal crossing today and finally finished a room in my house and im really proud of it, im gonna try to reform my whole house.

1/17/24. snowed a lot more and the snow is starting to become ice. i have a feeling the next few days are gonna be really boring.

1/16/24. snowed even more and now two cars outside my house, I've felt like i was gonna faint for half the day and ended up throwing up at the end of the day. hasn't been a good day and has just been filling me with anxiety and stress.

1/15/24. snowed about 4-5 inches of snow and somebodys car got stuck in the middle of it outside my house, really fun but i prefer staying inside and watching it than playing in it.

1/14/24. got to spend the whole day with my girlfriend and it was really fun, i just wish we could've hung out longer.

1/13/24. didnt do anything all day and have just been feeling really numb, its supposed to snow soon which is awesome especially since where i live we dont get snow often and when we do its hardly any.

1/12/24. i got to hangout with a bunch of friends and got really high. it was one of my favorite experiences while being high but i wish i got to spend more time with my girlfriend.

1/11/24. my youngest brother has been going into heart surgery for the last two days and i finally got news about him. he said it hurts to talk, cough, or move but hes fairly responsive and is being super brave. he has a heart condition where since birth was borth with a heart of a 27 year old man but currently hes only 7. he was in really bad condition but is recovering. i started to realize that heart problems runs in the family and i get a lot of sharp pains in my chest and my normal heart rate is already really fast. I should probably get it checked out just in case its not anything as severe as his.

1/10/24. i did a bunch of chores today because how messy my house has been has been stressing me out. i realized recently my heart rate has been a lot faster which probably isnt good. the only thing major that happened today is i had a heart to heart with my girlfriend and told her some of my concerns and sbe told me some of hers. we both felt bad but in the end it definitely help ease my mind at least and was probably comforting to her too.

1/9/24. i caught up on some anime that i needed to finish and got oatmeal cookies, nothing really happened today and still kinda worked up from yesterday.

1/8/24. check vent page.

1/7/24. i got to see some family members from Missouri yesterday and it was a lot of fun, we got mexican, talked about whats going on in our lives, played video games, cleaned. i also went to wasabi with some more family members and it was 100% amazing, i did get made fun of because i like my steak well done though.

1/6/24. i went to my dads work for a bit and we played hide and seek in the warehouse. when i got home i played some more DnD with my girlfriend and our friend. so far each day has been kinda boring with a small think to make it more exciting. tomorrow i get to see some not blood related family members so hopefully the whole day will be really fun and exciting.

1/5/24. nothing really happened this day other than i got to play DnD with my girlfriend and one of our friends. it was really fun and im super excited for this campaign.

1/4/24. i hung out with my girlfriend today and we watch the newest Spiderman movie and had steak and ramen. the food was really good so I'm planning on getting the recipe and making it for myself at home.

1/3/24. i got to talk to a lot of new people today and made some friends ish. it was super exhausting so i ended up napping for a few hours than staying up till 1.

1/2/24. my brothers partner moved in with us recently because they got kicked out of their house and at first they seemed cool. throughout each day i spend with them i realize that they're very disrespectful and can not shut their mouth. i had made the hibachi for my family after all the practice i had did and everyone said they really enjoyed it. my brothers partner would not stop talking about how their dad makes a better steak and how they know everything about steak. for some context his partner has no idea how to cook and I've never seen them cook unless it was a box food that you cooked in the oven. it hurt my feelings how they never thanked nor helped with dishes but i thought i was just being sensitive and this was stupid. the rest of my family agrees with me that his new partner is very disrespectful and my mother came to talk to me about his partners behavior and to apologize on their behalf. part of the deal with them living with us was also they would start to pay rent with my brother (who are 21 and 19) once they got a job. his partner has also made no effort to find a job or pay rent.

1/1/24. Nothing super exciting happened other than getting to play vr chat with my girlfriend and one of her friends. it was a lot of fun and we met a really cool guy and talked about avatars, anime, and stuff about talking to people. i had to get off though because for some reason my eyelashes kept getting pressed against the headset more than usual and it was frustrating and kinda hurt.

12/31/23. I went to one of my friends house for a New Years party and it was a lot of fun. we ordered pizza, talked, tried to watch some movies but at the very end of the day 5 of us slept on the couch and it was the most uncomfortable sleep I've had. it was definitely worth it though and i had a lot of fun, also we stayed up until 6am because we wanted McDonald's but delivery only opened at 4am (and their ice cream machine was broken and we had already paid for 4 oreo mcflurrys).